During last night’s post-show After the Catch chat, host Mike Rowe set up the clip of Cornelia Maria deckhand Freddie Maughtai telling Josh Harris he should abandon ship and be with his ailing father, Capt. Phil, by calling it one of the six-year-old series’ most honest moments. Last night’s episode added a few more to that list.
While Phil recovered from a 12-hour surgery to relieve pressure on his swelling brain, Josh, Jake, and Johnathan Hillstrand were updated on his condition. He could survive the devastating stroke, but it was going to be a long road back. Twenty-eight hours after the surgery, the neurologists told the boys and close friends that Phil had progressed nicely, was breathing on his own with minimal support, and would be able to talk later that day when they took him off the ventilator. “You guys are gonna be in for a treat,” Josh told the doctors. And everyone laughed. “So should we keep the tube back in?” one of them asked.
Knowing how this story ends made watching Josh’s relieved hugs with Jake and Johnathan painful, but it was impossible not to enjoy Phil’s reunion with his boys (which began with a wave to the camera). The doctors had one rule — one spoonful of ice chips an hour — but Phil wanted more. Josh kept deflecting his requests with humor, and Phil laughed, which was a beautiful sight. But Phil was persistent and wore Jake down. Jake went to give him one piece, and a tiff with Josh, who wanted to follow doctors’ orders, ensued. The “Really? You’re gonna do this now?” look on Phil’s face was classic. In the end, Phil made his own decision and took the spoon from Jake. All Josh could do was sit back down and shake his head at the camera. As strange as it sounds, that kind of hospital humor becomes a good memory in the end. My father has been battling an illness for nearly five years, and there are three moments my sister and I cling to: 1) When the neurosurgeon asked him for his post-surgery pain level on a scale of 1 to 10, and he answered 1.7. 2) When he mumbled, “Why would Brian Boitano take that kind of risk?” at 3 a.m. on his first night of chemo, hours after my sister and I had watched a figure skating special in his hospital room and compared the level of difficulties in routines by Boitano and Brian Orser. 3) When he flipped my sister off in front of an entire waiting room because she commented on the look on his face when he returned from a blood test. (She and I laughed so hard, we cried; dad, whose short-term memory was gone, refused to believe he’d done it.)
Three days by Phil’s side started taking its toll on the guys. Jake, who recently admitted to his father that he was an addict, headed to a bar. Johnathan held Phil’s hand and told him that he and so many people loved him and that he was taking care of his boys. Then he fought back tears waiting for the elevator and said he had to go. (I was glad to read in comments on other posts of mine that I’m not the only one who wants to hug this man right now.) Josh called Jake, who said he was “figuring something out,” and Josh was stretched too thin to care: “Jake, dad’s in the hospital dying, while you’re sittin’ there gettin’ high.” Jake was in a hotel room, and called Jake Anderson aboard the Northwestern. He told him Phil was going to be in the hospital for eight months, and Anderson told Harris he was just trying to keep it together as the search continued for his father, who at this point, had been missing for five weeks. We got a shot of Johnathan in the hospital’s chapel, and Josh leaving to go have it out with Jake.
I’m surprised the boys let the cameras film their raw verbal brawl, but again, it’s an honest moment — one that viewers who never have, nor never will, set foot on a crab boat can relate to. When a loved one is dying, people respond in different ways. Jake can’t understand how Josh hasn’t cried, and why he would have thought about staying with the boat when their dad was brought to Anchorage. Josh can’t understand why their father’s condition hasn’t sobered Jake up, and why he can’t share some of the responsibility. “I’m tryin’ to grow up, but I’m not used to…. everybody that I love and know f—in’ dying,” Jake said. The truth: Josh is staying sober so he can make decisions for his dad; Jake is so lost and overwhelmed that for him, drinking (or doing whatever he’s doing) in a hotel room instead of an alley is making an effort. Johnathan showed up and listened to the fight outside the door. He said it broke his heart and left the boys to finish it on their own. (I shouted “Get in there!” at my TV, but he must know what he’s doing.) The boys left the room talking about giving each other black eyes. I assumed they were both headed back to the hospital, but then hearing the voiceovers over the credits, I’m not so sure. Johnathan told Josh he wasn’t responsible for his younger brother and Josh would take care of his dad alone if he had to.
Over on the Northwestern, the crew did a 72-hour grind, and they were feeling the pain. After Edgar began his day with the breakfast of champions — pain killers — he helped Jake Anderson celebrate six months of sobriety with a regifted card and someone else’s 1-year candle cut in half and stuck in a cupcake. (Did they bring the cupcakes onboard or did someone make them?) You could tell by his childlike grin that this was enough for Jake, which is why we love him. He told the guys he wouldn’t be here without them. Sig, still at the wheel, spoke like an understanding second father. “There’s gonna be a couple of slips and trips along the way, that’s alright,” he said, before reverting to being his captain, “just don’t jeopardize my boat.” Does the boat mean more to Sig than his crew? That’s the question Edgar asked, repeatedly, when a low crab count and a looming deadline forced Sig to have then turn and burn. “I promised that I was not gonna beat my crew to death this season…. I don’t want my brothers to be in pain. I don’t want my crew to be in pain,” Sig said. “Bottom line, if you really want to go for crab, sometimes you gotta go barbaric. That’s just the way it is.” Edgar’s decision is becoming more and more clear: Continue to stay on the boat with his brother out of obligation or take time off/retire and be a father and a husband? His kids need a dad, not a skipper, he said.
I would love to see what Sig would do to the crew of the Kodiak. Wild Bill raised the wheelhouse roof when they started pulling crazy numbers of what one deckhand referred to as “eight-legged dollar bills.” But just as quickly, the cages started coming up near empty. Turns out, they’d been rigged incorrectly, and the crab had walked out an open back panel. Bill threatened to shoot someone of the crew’s choice in the leg. One of the deckhands is a dead man walking.
Things were just as tense on the Wizard. The stress of navigating through a 35-mile maze of ice flows to reach his gear had Capt. Keith reaching for the chewing tobacco. Cue a call from Keith’s 11-year-old ballbuster daughter, who was not happy to hear that the calendar she made him to chart his progress was full of ants (representing chew) instead of smiley faces (representing gum). He told her this time would be different, and her response: “No offense, but I hope this promise is better than the one in two thousand four, five, six, seven, eight, nine.” It was like a dagger to Keith’s heart, which he told her. On one hand, it’s sad that a little girl is so aware of cancer, but on the other, their relationship as she coaches him through kicking his 23-year habit (“Daddy, every journey has to start with a single step”) is precious. Keith got his gear back, filled with plenty of crab, so he knocked on wood, prayed to his bobbleheads, and reset his pots next to the ice in another gamble.
Over on the Time Bandit, Andy Hillstrand was fighting to stay focused while not knowing how Phil was doing. The crew was pulling pots in -30°, and when Mike Fourtner, who’d recently been crowned captain-in-training, couldn’t hook one buoy, they turned on him. It was tough to tell how much of it was harmless ribbing, and how much of it was Andy really reconsidering his choice. (I’d like to think one miss — or, okay, like 15 misses on one buoy — doesn’t erase everything Mike has done on the boat.)
What did you think of the episode? Did you make it through without a tissue? (As a reader commented below, watching a relief skipper take over the Cornelia Marie — not easy.) Are you stocking up for next week’s two-hour episode, when we say goodbye to Phil? Did you stick around for After the Catch? Highlights for me: Johnathan headbutting Josh’s shoulder after Capt. Keith and Mike Rowe said everyone asks them how Phil’s boys are doing. Freddie being too emotional to speak after watching the montage of Phil praising him, and Josh breaking the silence at the table after the clip of Freddie telling him to go be with Phil was shown to thank Freddie for the good advice. And the reveal of the prank Andy played on Wild Bill when they went crawfishing in Louisiana — he had someone empty his pots.








I was concerned about Jake Harris in this episode – he definitely seemed (to me) to be back on the pain meds. I’m really hoping he has been getting the support he needs to get off the stuff. This was another heart-breaking episode. I don’t know if I can take another week of this. Great job, producers, on a very sensitive handling of some very raw emotional events.
Exactly. IT’s breaking my heart. And Jon Hillstrand, what a guy.
I am staunchly on the side of John Hillstrand being one of the greatest guys ever right now…He was SO looking forward to warmer waters and fishing, and this is what his time off turned into…I hope he knows that he’s getting a HUGE hug from everyone watching the show right now.
RaRa – I recently read an interview with Josh, and he said that, after everything calmed down a bit, he and the producers were able to get Jake into rehab.
If you watched After the Catch, you know that the other guys are usually smoking…but Josh had one of those fake cigarette things…He said that, knowing that’s what killed his dad, he couldn’t keep doing that, so he quit smoking.
Each week hurts a little more…But, Discovery is handling it in such a respectful way that I keep watching…I do sometimes have to watch something silly afterwards to help me feel better…
who wouldnt want their own jon hillstrand..???
My husband & I have watched the show faithfully as well as all of the marathons. We feel we know all of thse people personally. Phil has been everybody’s favorite, and I think it is just killing all he fans, however, the Discovery Channel has handled all of this in a genuine way. This is true raw material about real lives and it is amazing. Jonathan really stepped up to help and that shows you what kind of a guy he is too. Phil’s stroke was killing him. This is a fascinating show and very emotional. We hope Josh & Jake can return on the show next season with a captain on their boat and carry on Phil’s work. I think that is truly what he would love.
ishow looking at raw emotions and the lives of the people who risk all for us who love to eat crab.I would like to thank them all for putting my life into perspective.God bless phil and the boys,be strong and make urself proud!
It really angers me how they treat Mike Fourtner on that boat. Last year, it was down to him and Russell on who they were going to kick off. Now this year, he’s the captain-in-trianing. Now, he’s getting crapped on because he couldn’t hook a buoy that was next to impossible to get. No wonder he got his own boat.
But even last week Mike was commenting that he’d have trouble with the crew, who he’d started with. Anyone who’s read Patrick O’Brian’s novels will tell you that you can’t move from a crew member to command on a ship of your peers. You have to go somewhere else for the very reason evidenced last night.
It just seems like they want to keep Mike thinking and wondering!Like r they just playing him until Scotty gets ready to step up to the plate?
Even knowing what’s coming I was still so happy seeing Phil smile and wave. I also loved seeing that the two Jake’s talked to each other. Johnathan keeps growing on me in leaps and bounds. When he was standing outside the door and said “Ah these boys”, I just wanted to hug him. And Keith’s daughter = freakin’ adorable. I was laughing so hard listening to her lecture Keith.
She is the greatest, isn’t she? I think we have a mini-motivational speaker on our hands…
And I don’t care if it was editing – I loved that the phone rang RIGHT after he stuck the dip in his mouth!
Keith’s little girl is the most well spoken 11 year old that I have ever heard.
Great editing on this show — too much of the Phil stuff and I don’t think I could watch it. But there was so much other drama . . . you couldn’t make this stuff up. I’m girding myself for next week.
definitely cried when i saw johnathan break down…something about seeing these men cry like that absolutely kills me. who knew i could be so emotionally invested in a show about people i’ve never met. i feel like i know them all the same. i’m preparing myself for next week, it’s gonna be a tough one.
I feel the same way. These men are so strong,and stoic.Watching THEM break down,just shows how dire the situation w/Phil is/was,and how much they truly love/ed the man.
@Julz, I TOO thought Keith’s daughter was just too cool for school. LOVE the spunk from that girl!And i LOVE how she is wise to her daddy’s ways:)
Great episode!
THanks Mandi,for covering the show:)
We also feel this way. Even though this is “reality” tv, this is not a game. This is real life and these men have let us into their life and we’ve become invested in them. This season is a heartbreaker – we all know the outcome, but watching it happen is hard. Watching these grown men who are all family to each other break down is harder. Johnathon broke my heart last night. Next week is going to be difficult no doubt, but as a viewer, I am honored that we get a chance to see how it goes and say our own “goodbyes” if you will.
Well put.
You know, it’s funny….how attached you can get to people you have never met! This season has been a real booger. Phil dying, Edgar so unhappy, Jonathan leaving the Time Bandit. The thing that really hurts though is watching previous seasons and seeing how happy they all were then.
Knowing the outcome, watching Phil’s family and friends so happy just made me choke up. Seeing their happy, smiling faces so hopeful just made me tear up. The scene where Phil was asking for the ice chips was hilarious. It’s so classic Phil and his face when the boys were arguing in front of him…LOL. Josh and Jake’s argument was real. Ppl do deal with stress in different ways. For Jake, trying to kick an addiction is bad enough but trying to do that when you’re stressed out/emotionally drained is near impossible. For Josh, taking care of his father takes precedent over anything else including his emotions. I feel for those boys.
Jonathan in tears hit me the hardest. I’ve always seen him as someone who’s a prankster, life of the party type of guy. Seeing him reduced to tears as he worries about Phil and his promise of taking care of the boys hit me so hard.
Edgar is burning out. I don’t know how old he is, but the guy is showing signs of his age. He’s come to that point where he questions whether this is what he wants to do for the rest of his life. I don’t really see him complain so seeing an entire episode where he complains non-stop just shows how exhausted this guy is.
That scene between Keith and his daughter was precious. I hope that he takes quitting more seriously but like as with Jake, in the most stressful times ppl usually use their old crutch to cope.
All the Hillstrands have this puckish sense of humor. A couple ep back Scotty was talking to the camera and flashed the Hillstrand grin, I thought to myself how fun one of their family reunions must be. That’s when you know, whether it’s his tears for Phil or his anger against Keith, Hillstrands emotions run very, very deep.
Great write-up. Thank you for sharing the hospital stories about your own father as well. So sorry for your loss.
So sorry to hear about your dad, Mandi. It’s tough to see a loved one go through something like this. I can relate to that. My dad was in the hospital for nearly six months before eventually passing away. As difficult as it was to see him fading away, we got to see a flash of him the last time we visited him as a family. My brother tickled his foot, and from the look on his face, you knew he was LIVID. While not a joke or grin, it was nice to know that he was still with us.
Keith’s daughter is awesome. She needs her own show.
Completely agree! I couldn’t remember her age because she seems to be such an old soul yet such a young voice. She reminds me a bit of my daughter, who is mature beyond her nine years. The world needs more kids like this.
Every week I have had to force myself to watch, knowing what is coming, but by the end I’m always glad I did. It was tough seeing a relief captain come aboard the Cornelia Maire, but the world keeps turning.
Next week will be the hardest yet.
I kept wondering if Murray was going to come back as relief captain.
I just bawl watching this. Josh having to man up and shoulder all the responsibility while Prodigal Son Jake struggles to find his way…. Next week is going to be a xanax/jug of wine night.
You got that right Colleen. Xanax and wine for me too next week. Geesh that will be hard to watch.
I want to hug everyone of these men, because even they have to be hard as nails, for the hard lives they lead, you can’t help but see the emotion in them. Loved Jonathan & Freddy! Freddy you rock!! Did anyone notice Sig blinking back tears after one of the clips on After the Catch? Never thought I would ever see that much emotion from him, but there it was! Love you too Sig!!
Although I’ll probably go You Tube Captain Phil’s dissertation on Crab farts after the show for a little levity.
When they were talking about superstitions last night, I really wished they’d slipped that clip in there…I love the crab farts
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It is gut wrenching watching this. You know what’s eventually coming, and still, everything hits you like a truck. I have seen the scene with Keith asking God “Cut him some slack” at least four times, and I choke up every time. Next week is going to be an emotional ordeal for everyone.
Such a great recap! This show is breaking my heart every week, and next week is going to be brutal. Still, I applaud the entire Harris family for allowing so much honesty to come through the cameras into our televisions. And for everyone who has lost a loved one to any illness, but especially a stroke (like myself), these moments are difficult to watch, but reassuring to see, knowing that everyone can find the levity, fear, sadness and joy in the final moments and days of a loved one (in retrospect and in the moment). Congrats to the “Deadliest Catch” for supplying some of this year’s most raw emotion on television.
I have been doing nothing but crying reading all the emails. I so want to watch the last episode knowing I will be doing nothing but crying. I am so glad so many viewers feel like the guys on Deadlist Catch are family, I know I do. I love them all! Josh & Jake my thoughts are with you and your families. Karen